I am depressed and not enjoying being a mom

by Hala

hi,
I have a premature baby, my daughter was born 7 weeks earlier than planned, her weight was 2.250 kilo, and 2 weeks ago I celebrated her one year birthday and her weight now is 8 kilos, she is a hard and fussy eater, I tried everything and she is constantly closing her mouth tight and refuse to eat.

My daughter drinks 2 bottles of pediasure (concentrated milk with high protein and iron) and I add to the milk some biscuit and cereal as she does not like to eat cereal and she always vomit everything I give especially in the morning,

so the only solution was to add this to the milk, and believe me when I say that she needs more than 6 hours to finish the first bottle, and if I am lucky and she does not vomit the milk, then I give her lunch which is veggie with chicken, and of course I have to do so many tricks that she eats few spoons and most of the time she vomits everything and I have to try again, and dinner is a bottle of milk with some biscuit. that is all.


she does not like yogurt, pudding, cereals, nothing nothing. I am fed up really and so depressed and motherhood for me is HELL.
thanks
hala